Monday, December 31, 2012

Farewell 2012...

scattered shadows on a wall, you watch the long light fall 
some impressions stay and some will fade
tattered shoes outside your door, clothes all on the floor
your life feels like the morning after all year long. 

every day it starts again

you cannot say if you're happy
you keep trying to be
try harder, maybe this is not your year.

movies, tv screens reflect just what you expected

there's a world of shiny people somewhere else
out there following their bliss
living easy, getting kissed
while you wonder what else you're doing wrong

breathe through it, write a list of desires

make a toast, make a wish, slash some tires
paint a heart repeating, beating 
DON'T GIVE UP
DON'T GIVE UP
DON'T GIVE UP

~the weepies


Sunday, December 30, 2012

"Don't ask for guarantees. And don't look to be saved in any one thing, person, machine, or library. Do your own bit of saving, and if you drown, at least die knowing you were headed for shore.”

~Fahrenheit 451

Color Affection

Finished a project today.  This was supposed to be a Christmas gift for my grandmother, but I didn't quite finish it in time.  I am debating whether or not I should give it to her now, or wait and save it for a birthday present (her birthday is in February).

Pattern: Color Affection
By: Veera Välimäki
Yarn: Valley Yarns Charlemont in Black, Grey, and Grape

Had a little trouble getting gauge.  Then I wasn't sure if I wanted to do the Lace or Fingering version.  I love how look together, and it looks fine on, but the shape came out a little wonky.  I think I probably didn't do a great job of keeping track of what row I was on.  Sadly, that is not unusual for me.  It was a pretty easy knit, but got rather boring after a while (all that plain knitting row after row).  



I actually made something from Pinterest

I got the urge to bake for a friend's holiday shindig.  This is very out of character for me...  I never cook or bake.  Well very rarely.  Decided to try two recipes that I found on Pinterest.  One was very successful, the other was okay but not amazing.

First, the not so good:
These weren't bad, but not as good as I had hoped they would be.  It's probably my fault though.  I couldn't find actual Rolos anywhere yesterday, so I settled for Mini Rolos.  Didn't work as well.  A few people at the party seemed to like them, but I wouldn't say they were the best.

Next, the success:

I really liked this recipe.  They were delicious and not that hard to make.  Of course, since I never bake, I  harassed a friend the whole time I was making them asking her questions and sending her pictures so she could tell me if they were done.  

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

This one is worth a read...


ZeitounZeitoun by Dave Eggers
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

When I started reading this book I wasn't aware that it was nonfiction (it reads as a first person narrative).  For some reason the author's note about the content of the book was moved from the start in the regular print version to the end in the audio version.  I was about halfway through before I discovered that it was the true story of one family's experience during Hurricane Katrina.  The fact that it chronicles actual events makes the story all the more heartbreaking.   I thought it was an excellently written and powerful book.  I highly recommend this one.    


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Sunday, December 23, 2012

My Own Worst Enemy

I have been in several situations recently where I have been asked to describe myself... I find this task incredibly hard.  I've had friends describe me as "so nice"and other friends laugh at that description.  I wouldn't say I'm particularly nice... but I'm certainly not evil either.  The more I think about it the harder I find the task to be.

I've been in a bit of a funk lately...  I have this tendency to hold myself to impossible standards, and then berate myself for not living up to them.  Even when I set achievable goals, I tend to be such a slacker that I never really follow through with them either.  Where is all this coming from?  I am done with grad school.  Finally.  I've been in school my whole life, I'm ready to be done.  Should be happy, right?  Twelve years since graduating high school, I've taken classes at 6 different schools, and will now have 3 degrees... but not a doctorate.  I always said I'd get my Ph.D. but I'm pretty burnt out at this point, so I'm stopping at my CAGS.  This is an accomplishment I know, but I'm beating myself up over it not being a doctorate... I'm also beating myself up over my GPA not being perfect...  Why did I slack off and get two Bs?

I think it drives me nuts because being smart is the one thing that I have.  I'm not hot or pretty. I'm not particularly funny.  I'm not talented.  I'm not all that likable.  I'm socially awkward and more than a little neurotic.  I'm not even a very good student.  But I am smart.  I have that.  And now, as my formal education is winding down, I'm stuck with all these regrets of how I never really bothered to apply myself in any real way.  Just coasted through school sometimes doing really well and sometimes doing nothing at all.  I'm stuck wondering how my life might be different if I had just put forth a little effort.

Can't really have this conversation with anyone in real life because everyone thinks I'm crazy.  So, I'm spilling here... Which is unusual for me.  I generally try to keep the "dear diary" personal entries down to a minimum.  I can generally recognize when I'm being irrational, but for some reason I just can't seem to let this go.

Catch and Release

After reading all about the filming of this movie in Kevin Smith's book (see previous post), I felt the need to watch it.  I was sad to discover it wasn't on Netflix and I had to pay to rent it from Amazon Video instead.  For some reason I thought this was a new movie than it actually was, but it's actually from 2006.  

I liked Kevin Smith's character because it was pretty much what I picture him to be like in real life, albeit a much tamer version.  It also reinforced my previous conclusion that Timothy Olyphant kind of rocks.  He plays the cool character with such ease... and that smirk...  I would hit that... Can't wait for Justified to return.  Sorry, got a little off topic there.  

I did struggle to get over the fact that the would be mother-in-law was the evil, possessed witch that tried to kill everyone on True Blood.  Couldn't help but keep waiting for her to go all crazy...

Not going to be one of my favorite movies, but it was definitely an enjoyable flick if you're in a sappy sort of mood.

Friday, December 21, 2012

Secret Santa Knitting

Every year we do Secret Santa at work.  It is a whole lot of fun.  In the past I've knit for my person, but it's alway tough to finish something when you have less than a week from the time you find who you'll be Santa-ing for and when the final gift it due (we do four days of giving).  

This year I picked a little bit of an ambitious project, a reversible cable scarf, but I knew the person who's name I pulled would like it.  I wish I had remembered to take a picture before giving it away!  It could have been a tad longer, but it wasn't too bad.  Next year I either need to knit something in advance, or pick a faster project. 


Wednesday, December 19, 2012

My Boring-Ass Life

So, I moved my book reviews out of the main page of my blog into their own section because they were kinds of taking over and because I read/listen to so many books I couldn't keep up with the posting.  However, I just finished reading this book (which is really just a reprinting of Smith's blog) and it has inspired me to try to get back into blogging.  I really like to write, I'm just not particularly good at it.  Maybe some practice will help...

My Boring-Ass Life: The Uncomfortably Candid Diary of Kevin Smith My Boring-Ass Life: The Uncomfortably Candid Diary of Kevin Smith by Kevin Smith
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This wasn't a quick read because it gets a bit repetitive in places, but here are my thoughts after finishing it.

1."I picked up some McDonald's hash browns, two dozen roses, and both hot and iced lattes for Jen to celebrate the seventh anniversary of the first time we ever..." You had me at hot and iced lattes... I wouldn't mind being married to Kevin Smith. He is sweet to his wife and kid, and generous with his friends and family. He is both crude (in a way that appeals to me) and hilarious. When he's wrong he owns up to it. He also loves Veronica Mars and understands the power of bringing a girl both hot and iced lattes. Why can't I find a guy like this? He loves and adores his wife in a way that no one has ever loved me (or probably ever will).

2. After reading all about the filming of Catch and Release, I really want to watch it now. Wonder if it's on Netflix...

3. I've seen both Smith alone for a Q&A and Smith and Mewes together on their "Jay and Silent Bob Get Old" tour. I was well aware that Mewes had serious drug problems, but I didn't realize just how bad they were, how many times he tried to get clean, and how long he and the people around him suffered. You have to feel for Mewes. He's clean and sober now, but something about him makes me think of a little lost puppy that I want to scoop up and give a good home.

4. Essentially the book is a just a reprint of Smith's daily blog. As I was reading I kept thinking "I really should blog more." Then I remembered that no one actually reads my blog. My life just isn't that exciting and no one really gives a shit about what I have to say.

Final thoughts... If you're a hardcore Smith fan you'll likely enjoy this book, but might get bored in parts where it is a little slow. Stick it out as the second half is pretty interesting. If you're only a causal fan this is probably a little too much Smith for you.